Payat na ako! =:O
Payat na ako! =:O
Can’t even fix my bed. T.T
Well hello.. It’s been a while.. nagpaparamdam lang dahil namimiss ko na tumambay dito…
Pardon me for the very haggrad face :-D.
Kmusta na kayo?
Samal Island, Davao
Been there, done that. :)
Anonymous asked: i lily lily like your eyes. :)
The thing is. It’s hard for me trust somebody anymore. I’m afraid that my heart, still mending from a heartache, would be crushed again. Maybe that’s why I am so paranoid. Maybe that’s why jealousy is my thing. It’s hard jumping into a relationship. It makes me scorn to the mere fact that I am entering a relationship without assurance that I am the only one. If it’s a serious one or just a fling. Or just to let boring time pass by. Just to play with your heart again. And just to hurt it, scar it all over again.
I am so angry with myself. I always promise myself that I will not give in at once but gosh, I always get carried away. I am like a puppy, ever loyal to his master. Through happiness, sorrowfulness, through cheating and lying, still there. Clumped up, still caring, and loving, and loving. Even if I am hurt, I have no choice because I’m in love. I can run away, but halfway, I still come back, crawling and crying, because I just can’t leave the one I love. I am a slave of love.
If i could just escape through all this conundrum, I would have left by now. Well, for the first time, I felt so alone. That feeling when your chest feels heavy and you want to cry but you can’t. Just can’t.
All this gloomy vibes plus the rain makes me think of home. My big bed. And it’s comfy too. The smell of cow poop, dead leaves, and the smell of wet soil right after the rain pours. Nostalgic. And I am missing that so badly. I have had more drama lately than those soap operas in TV. It’s making me go back to what I used to be. Depressed, always absent minded, and not happy. But I can’t get out. It’s as if I am trapped in a cage with no door to open. I feel so horrible and it’s reflecting in my poor face. My very big eye bags, plus the breakouts blows away my disguise as being a happy go lucky person.
I know I know. I have the option to just walk away from all of this. But I’m also thinking that someday, some damn fucking luck would fall upon my head and bring back the smile in my face. I’m still hoping though. I still have a positive outlook in my life even with these negative things swallowing me. Still dreaming of that happy ending that I always imagine inside my head. Hmmmm…just go figure. Bahh!
Anonymous asked: Is it bad if I sort of like you? Y'know, like "I like you?" You get it, right? Or maybe not. Please don't publish this.
You sort of like me like “i like you?”? What does that mean? DI ko alam. T.T I have to publish this since anon ka naman XP